2005-06-17 - 10:10 a.m.
Anybody know what today is? Guess...
Today is my 5 year wedding anniversary.
Wow, I think it's a good thing that it doesn't even seem possible that 5 years have gone by. I mean, there is the obvious time marker of the two children and the stretch marks...but hey I'm not counting those.
A few weeks ago Chance and I made a major change. The change was him quitting drinking daily. I can not even begin to explain how things have gotten better. There hasn't been a fight or argument, I haven't hated him once or thought he was stupid. And he hasn't told me I'm a bitch either.
All the hard times we went through, we would talk and try to think of ways to change or do things differently so we could continue to get along and be married. It wasn't until recently that I realized the one part we had never removed from the equation that makes "us" was the drinking factor. So he agreed to try it for 1 month just to see if things changed. Wow. That's all I can say. Wow.
I didn't realize that I even still loved my husband this much. I was seriously falling into the trap of, "I guess I'm married so I have to at least tolerate him" mind set. I was miserable and would cry because I couldn't believe I'd damned myself to a lifetime of what our marriage had become.
I'm so in love and amazed that after all these years (we've been together for 7 years total) we finally truly clicked together. We work together, not like two machines both wanting the same result, but tearing each other up to get there.
All I can do is...exhale. I've finally seen what a happy marriage can be, and I'm truly blessed to be viewing it from the inside.
